Friday, January 30, 2009

Is this week over yet?

So this has been the week from hell, worst week of my life. But I must say that I am blown away at the support that my friends have given me. I mean they just sit there and listen, and listen, and listen... it's as if they have nothing else to do, although I know they do have other things to do. You know, the more I think about it, the more I realize that I am horrible at helping people when they are having a hard time, I mean I am terrified when I am in that situation. It's like these friends of mine are fearless, they just dive right in and it's amazing.

Also, I am having some beef with God. He is sending me mixed signals. I wonder if this happens to anyone else. I just can't wait to see what his "reason" is for making me go through this week. It better be a good one, that's all I have to say. Ever wonder what your life would be like if every decision made in your life were up to you? I think it is best that it is up to God anyways, although I think it's funny how He sometimes leads you to believe you are actually making the decisions, what a funny man.

So I am in a bible study titled "It's tough being a woman". Wednesday was the first day and it was so funny b/c she talked about how it's so hard being a woman b/c of our hormones. HAHA, at first when i heard the title I was thinking "It's not that hard. We get to smell good, and look pretty. We don't have hair in weird places." but then I got to thinking " well we do have to wake up earlier to look pretty, and we do have to shave our legs, and we do have to bathe" I realized just to be a woman we work so much harder then men. haha but then when you factor in the hormones. I wonder how many decisions we have made based on our hormones. Hmmm... who knows, is it God? is it hormones? it's so hard to keep it straight.

I wonder what this week will bring me next, I swear there better be more laughing than crying, that's all I have to say about this week.